It happened, and as the title says, we all knew. I forgot about the blog.

I remembered a few weeks ago, but I was not able to find the right mood to sit down and write. To be fair, once I did find it, and I started writing a bigger and more introspective article that I hope to post here soon.

There's a lot to catch up with and frankly I don't know where to start from. I'm not even sure I want to share all of it, I don't remember all of it.

On February I was asked to take over a leading position for a couple of weeks at work, to cover for a colleague who was off. I accepted, and roughly 3 months later, while handing over that position to someone else, I was able to think positively about this experience. I've learned a few things about myself:

  1. I can be a leader if I want to, people seem to have given good feedbacks about my leadershp;
  2. I can focus a lot more when there is a sense of urgency and responsibility is on me;
  3. If I'm not careful at managing my brain among work and personal projects, I easily burn out.

The last one almost happened during the last few months, while I was carrying the burden of responsibility and iperfocusing on personal projects at the same time. The marvels of AI clearly revealed their double faces during these adventures. While it really helps at work, navigating an 8 million codebase, writing code, reading documentation and writing technical messages, it also makes my brain lazy. And while it's incredible how fast I can bring my personal ideas to life vibecoding, it creates a dopamine loop that is addictive for my neuro-diverse brain, temendously facilitating the process towards burndown.

After some time of playing a lot of Minecraft and changing to a normal-paced role again, I was able to find some stability again. That allowed me to relax for some time.

That brings us to now, an incredibly anomalous May, weather-wise, with some crazy high temperatures for this time of the year. Usually heat brings out the worst of me, constantly being on the risk of meltdowns. Let me say that for now, a few days into the heat wave, I'm fine. Probably thanks to the fact that I'm hyperfocusing on a personal project, quite an old one, in a sort of healthy way.

Yes, I resurfaced my Rust NES emulator project, and I'm proud to say that I'm coding it on my own, character by character. I'm truly re-discovering the joy of programming, and the beauty of emulators and low level computing. I find it additive to stare at the screen full of hex opcodes, addressing modes and being able to understand all of that. To be completely honest I have been using AI, but just to get explanations of the NES architecture or some crazy debugging in emergency situations.

I'll conclude here, I'm satisfied. I'm writing from my bed and there's an incredibly annoying and repetitive noise coming from outside, I'll go deal with it.

I'm not ready to make any more commitments about this blog, I'd break them anyway.

Good night, surfers